yana yatsu

I hate you. I hate everything about you. From your stupid hats. To your fucked up face.
Worst thing is, i don't hate you at all.   .__.
Gah. I just had to ring Kala up to calm me down because i was in tears >_<.
So, i got pissed earlier and hugged Damian again. And then like not so long ago i stole his number just to text him saying sorry about earlier, etc. And he replied with something like ''Good girl. Find yourself a nice fella. I luv u dog pronto. end ov''  So i was like, erhi have one but okay, no need to be so patronising, are you going tae tell my mum? And he just replied saying ''Good girl. Go get em'' so i rang him up. And he sounded fucked. I was like ''are you drunk'' and he was like ''i'm fucking hammered, you'll have to be quick she's upstairs.'' i was like ''who is?'' and he said ''my girlfriend.''
I just felt my heart drop. Like a stone. A fucking anchor. Uh. Well. He said he's not going to tell my mum anyway. And said that i'd be alright. Etc. Fucking. Patronising git. I'm 18. Eighteeeeeeeen. I'm not five. Good girl good girl good girl, fucking hell.
Srsly though i just. hung up and cried. |: ergh i hate men. seriously. I wish he didn't come for the dog every day. Then i wouldn't have to see him. He's such a bastard. He's all different when we're face to face but through text he's like oh no forget about me, kinda thing. >_<
I should focus on Jordan ._. I just can'tttt think atm.
I think i've probably got bipolar. That's what Kalaaaa said. But i think she's right. And i'm gonna like keep all these blogs so in years to come i can look back and see what kinda messed up kid i was.  Pfh.
Oh and. Link to my old blogz which fer some reason i can't get on anymore? but yeah. all part of my childhood.
All importantttt.
http://www.blogger.com/profile/13517154734986843017

Take my hand, we'll hide in the corner, take my hand, we'll hide till it's over.

And then i see him again and my heart goes about a thousand times faster. >_<

I wish i didn't feel this way. Everytime he smiles at me i feel like the only girl alive. ._.